A Mess I Am......by kecialondon

So of the many things i am. I am also a Published poet. I love giving my readers food for thought. So here is one of my earlier works. Show love if you feel so..... It is entitled...A Mess I Am

I am a mess of emotion,an intricate puzzle indeed/
like a lamp,my light of happiness is dampered/
by my shade,so when you look at me/
what do you see?/
could it be,your eyes have deceived you/
because in the morning i put on make-up/
to disguise the real me /
would you have guessed im a mess/
with a burden on my chest/
underneath this skin /
not to mention my unhappiness/
is past skin deep /
you seethis feeling over whelmes me/
while isolation penetrates my soul/
until i've become numb,of emotionally attached feelings/
of being loved and wanted/
for me to jeprodize my happiness/
seems okay in some sick way/
because of the hurt and pain i will feel/
due to a tainted love/
giving a good thing up/
im afraid to see myself happy/
because of how i'll feel,when this feeling is gone/
So i jump from a bed of doubt,to a bed of insecurity/
yet i've felt this bed before/
because i made it, so the discomfort is a consistent feeling/
yet i stay, as if it is appealing/
but a mess i am,so a mess ill be/
but im a mess,that cant love you/
because i cant love me.......